I Remember Believing What I Do Not Believe Now.

Where do our beliefs come from? How do our beliefs change as we grow our consciousness? How can we know we aren’t trading one set of beliefs for another that is just as limiting?

I remember when I believed what I do not believe now. I remember being so sure that my perspective was correct, that my beliefs and seeing were accurate. I remember seeing things differently than I do now.

I remember not being sure of knowing anything. Then I figured out that we can’t know what we don’t know we don’t know.

I remember being confused and uncertain. I remember having no idea what I believed. I remember questioning my ability to have any knowing, to ever have peace with my place in the vastness of the Universe, of Creation. Gone was the familiar personal all-knowing god, replaced by an unknown.

I remember surrendering to the knowing and not knowing. I found peace in the paradox. Sometimes, the answer is, “It’s complicated and a mystery.”

Transformation comes when the former perception has dissolved to give space to a new seeing. The memory of the old remains, but it is simply a memory, no longer a belief, like taking off a veil over our eyes that obscures our view. Things look different now, and while we may remember the old, veiled perception, we realize we no